oh my. well. i'm just not in the mood to do anything to my page or anything.. i'm annoyed with the teen webpage nonsense today, and self-expression-through-html in general. i'm being hypocritical and all, but.. yea. im good at being hypocritical. since i don't feel like opening my scribble.nu so i'll just write here.. ryans in town but im afraid i'll never get to see him. julies in new york meeting radiohead, which is just kinda like being punched in the jaw in an odd way. last night my brother decided to start pounding walls again. i just kinda.. wanna disappear today.. [insert comments about how my parents never loved me, my life is futile and no one understands my pain here].